Is that you, Jessa?

Hi. -______-

I'm in my biggest probation right now and this is the first time I talk about this. Yeah, I'm starting to feel uncomfortable about myself. It's like I'm in the midst of forgetting the old Jessa. I've been figuring this out since mid this year. I don't know, I'm just really DOWN & DEPRESSED right now.

Usually, I show everybody that I'm the strong girl who can handle all the stress of the hypothalamus..

WHAT HAPPENED TO ME? I'm not this emotional.. And I seriously don't want to be like this forever :(

I usually try to fit to their expectations even if it means me being the distressed monster.


Yeah, I hope this will be the first and last time I'll be saying these lousy statements. They're all new to me! I need to get my own dose of meds.

Perhaps, perhaps. I wish to find you very very soon again,